aiyazawa's Xanga

Friday, November 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 16:56:22 GMT

i wun ask for stereotypical stuff
actually im quite easily satisfied

i juz feel
quite disappointed.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 16:27:38 GMT

sumtime i stil feel quite lonely n flawed even though im not alone
lack of security when im be wif u
iSitaproblem.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 11:18:59 GMT

120909
heard a new version in Hajin's concert
It's too late

Stayed in bed all morning just to pass the time
There's something wrong here, there can be no denying
One of us is changing, or maybe we've stopped trying

And it's too late, baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

It used to be so easy living here with you
You were light and breezy and I knew just what to do
Now you look so unhappy, and I feel like a fool

And it's too late, baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

There'll be good times again for me and you
But we just can't stay together, don't you feel it too
Still I'm glad for what we had, and how I once loved you

But it's too late, baby, it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 16:13:13 GMT

everyone need to grow up emotionally.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 16:27:27 GMT

人人都有自己一套看人的準則　但世上怎能只有一類人
　不應強求太多　想他或她接近別人的準則多一點　
而且自己的想法才是最重要　不應太受別人影響

有很多時候有些東西管不到控制不到　所以才倒不如不去理會
但有些當然要強行自己學習去理會

我在想　自己是有很多不足　但不應過於責難
隨心而行
是對的　才盡力的更新與調節

放少一點心思在別處　放多一點心思在自己那處
不要經常自憐　緊記著衪

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 17:05:16 GMT

前天跟媽閒言時略帶一句　她廖廖數句便說到我心坎處　舒暢很多
很愛她　最明白自己
明天是父親節　我也很愛爸

好了　開動做正經事　真的要

順帶一提　冒險樂園真的頗好玩　是兒童賭場　BONUS 正哈哈
突然想起孩提時也經常去玩　差點忘記　

Monday, June 15, 2009

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 04:44:00 GMT

有時想一個人去了解自己以及想去挽救與修補一些覺得值得的東西　出盡力了還是沒能做到也是沒有辦法
是沒有緣份便沒有緣份　
雖感覺事情有些是無風起浪　無奈　但有很多事真的控制不了
好像又說不清　而且有些東西我很執拗　不認同　不是每人也能跟自己「夾」到　放棄
我不習慣又以攻擊的說話表達愛意或惡意或解釋　算了吧不想再像自辨般
說得對不要再說或想　不是大家做錯什麼　是配合不到便配合不到　我是不習慣爽朗地直賜直吐
你維持原況　我也不改變自己
好了　學習慢慢的　不要感到惋惜與悲傷　反正也跟我說　浪費時間與不想再想　
但不能一時做到　因為有些東西我一重視便會用情很深　我沒能偽裝
時間　
把一些不是雙向的感情擱置一旁　沒有氣失去一個自己認為是知心的朋友只有失望把心思放到別處　學習放寬心情　
怎樣也好　有些說話是說了可能不發現是很傷人是有缺口
別人說天蠍座是愛狠很分明　我或許有小許這些因子
發生了　但當然可回復正常
學到了一些東西　待人處事我還是要學習
我太執拗　不理原來最好　他說得對
我也不想再想了我是沒有多好感覺自己很煩像個白癡
以為凡事退一步便好　為什麼要這麼雞婆在道歉反正改不了是改不了
總之愛我的人不要再跟我說這樣的話便好
回復正常
完。

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昨天由元朗回來　今天睡了很多　可能是因為身體有些不舒服及沒事幹才又心情底落　不停找甜點吃
加上家裡又沒有人　獨自一人便愛胡思亂想　隔幾天便沒事
說到底我還是怕孤獨　不要再說有誰陪我什麼什麼的

小了在這處打東西　因為近來有些害怕　現在不管了　
收到老弟的postcard 感覺開心很多　他真的成熟了很多　有些地方比我還成熟
朋友　我到現在還是不太懂　每次　我也好像做得不夠好　可能我真是表裡不一令人不了解令人覺得恐佈　
但cyn說得對　要想這麼多才做得成朋友會很辛苦
　還是見到家人最好　天在下雨　感覺好很多
711(:

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 18:56:36 GMT

bck to hk for few days already
need to remember all these n move on.
actually this post is solely for carmen(feel happi rite?haha)
juz wanna say cheer up to u n support u
dun ever feel 'tui' too often(:
n yea everythg is juz by blind chance, no purpose n no design.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Wed, 20 May 2009 00:41:57 GMT

arrived ldn
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unconfident.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Wed, 13 May 2009 00:20:47 GMT

train from edinburgh to york.
11509

卻會敗了給時間。